My good luck seems to have run out as of late

It seems that, in the past few days, I've had an ungodly amount of bad luck struck down upon me. I do not know why, I do not know what I could have possibly done except, you know, live, but somehow I feel that something's just out to get me now. Be it karma (for what?!), god (whatever cruel god there is) or just plain old bad luck that just happens to be all at the same damn time, I don't know.

All I do know is that it positively sucks and I'm feeling down in the dumps like I used to before I started LARPing. Now this is a bad sign, indeed. I never feel this way. The combination of things happening over the span of the last week and particularly in the last two days have slowly started pushing me over the edge, however, and I'm just about ready to crack.

For those wondering what the hell happened, well...my previous entry explains the deer incedent and that started the major ball rolling, as it were. Because, as I'm trying to push past the fright of that event late on Friday night with my LARP, my character gets killed.

Now, this shouldn't be too horrible - it's just a character. Granted, this was my very first character and my very first character death in any LARP. I admit it, I cried a little, but got over it. I can expand my horizons with the new character I'm planning for next week.

But, as if that weren't enough, god decided to rain down his wrath upon me in real life, and I returned to the out-of-character room later that night, grabbed my backpack and ran out to put my stuff in my car. While at my car, I decided I'd grab my iPod touch and listen to music while I waited for the rest of the players to wrap up, but to my horror my iPod and my camera were gone. I searched frantically, car and backpack, and ran back frantically to tell everyone.

Despite all my friends' best efforts it was hard not to cry. As someone who's had stuff stolen before, it puts you through hell and back - especially so because I had not a clue who could have done it and really, nothing to go on for a lead. Not to mention, both items had been gifts from family and as such I really didn't want to have to inform said family that they'd gotten stolen.

But, the misery doesn't stop there. I finally call in the crime to the WWU Campus Police and file a report, and go to coffee with the rest of the LARP group down at IHOP. Around midnight people begin to disperse so I do the same, but I know I need a few things for my new character next week and since I'm already heading back that way I decide to stop at Wal-Mart and then Walgreens.

On my way from Wal-Mart to Walgreens, I get pulled over by a cop. I've never been pulled over before. And do you know what I did to get pulled over? Absolutely nothing. I believe I took a turn too fast. Holy shit, that's a crime?! Luckily there was no ticket involved, or I'd have grabbed the officer's gun and shot myself right then and there.

As I was walking into Walgreens, with the way my life had gotten turned upside down the last couple nights, I thought to myself, "If I get mugged walking out of here, I swear to god I'm going to off myself as soon as I get home. I've had it."

Some days I only believe there is a god because he seems to love making my life miserable, just when I'm starting to be happy and have fun again. I may as well live under a permanent rain cloud.

Now, honestly? I'll live. Now I just have to sort through the shreds of my sanity to find the little bit I was clinging to before all this shit happened. I'm back to my shitty mp3 player and I have no camera save for my phone and my video camera. Which, if worst comes to worst, I'm going to sell because I never use it. I may never see my iPod or camera again. And, despite my dislike of police, I'm putting my faith in them to hopefully track my stuff down.